|Death: ||May 30, 1881|
John N. Lawson
Pvt, Co. E, 46th Ohio Infantry
Residence was not listed; 19 years old.
Enlisted on 9/27/1861 as a Private.
On 11/18/1861 he mustered into "E" Co. OH 46th Infantry
He was Mustered Out on 7/22/1865 at Louisville, KY
d. 30 May 1881
The Columbus Journal, June 1, 1881
LAWSON--Monday morning about 9 o'clock the city was horrified by the news that John Lawson had shot himself at his residence in the western part of the city. It proved to be only too true, and the unfortunate man lingered unconscious till a quarter after eleven, when he breathed his last.
He had not been home since Saturday last, and his wife and two daughters had spent the night with their friend Mrs. Griffin, the grandmother of the children. Monday morning about seven, Carrie, the oldest daughter, went to Mr. Hill's for milk, and while there spoke with her father, who told her they had better not come home for breakfast, but eat at their grandmother's. After breakfast at Mrs. Griffin's the family went home.
They knocked at the front door, which was locked, and Carrie called her father. Immediately they heard the sound of a pistol. They then went to a side door, and entered the house, but could not get into the room where the unfortunate man had imprisoned himself. Calling in one of the neighbors, the door was forced open, and Mr. Lawson was found lying on the bed, in the agonies of death, a Colt's pistol and a razor lying near him. He, evidently, had deliberately planned the deed, though we have failed to learn of any intimation that he had it in contemplation, or anything going to show that he ever before exhibited signs of insanity.
He had probably returned home very late Sunday night or early Monday morning, after a night of losses at the gaming table, excited, remorseful, and, brooding over his troubles, became mad. Letters, written evidently at this time, to acquaintances in the city, reveal his feelings and his thoughts. In these he says nothing of a determination to kill himself, but of his troubles having driven him mad.
Having provided himself with two effective instruments of death, a Colt's revolver and a sharp razor, he sat upon the bed, took the pistol in his right hand, held it to his head, and fired the fatal ball which crashed through the skull and brain, rendering him unconscious and causing death, as before stated.
He accuses himself of having been a bad man, asks his old friends to forgive him for his wrong acts involving them in loss, begs of his children to remember his kindness to them, and asks to be buried by the side of his wife who is dead. He also says that if the business of gambling is not stopped in this city there will be more men go the same road.
The letters are private property, and of their contents we have not the privilege of publishing more than appears above.
The deceased was born in Ohio and was about 38 years old when he died. He was in the service during the Rebellion, and, as a member of Capt. Eagan's company of the regular army, did duty in the western country, and is said to have been a good soldier.
It is not known that there was any taint of insanity in Mr. Lawson's family, but a friend suggests that he was once, while in the service of his country, injured in the head and had the operation of trepanning performed, and that the wound might have been the cause of insanity developing now.
The deceased leaves a widow, and two children by his first wife, daughters Carrie and Annie, aged, respectively, 12 and 7.
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