|Birth: ||May 8, 1969|
|Death: ||Apr. 12, 2005|
South Dakota, USA
When i think bio. i think a boring 2 paragraphs about a couple of dates location, and some names. This isnt that at all. This is about memories. its about Life. its about family.
Ever meet that one person who lit up every dark room and never realized it? That person was our momma... her name was Loescianna Mae Collins....otherwise known as heidi ..or to the 4 of us mom. To Toni Jamie Jesse and I she was the only consistent thing in our lives. Our dad stepped out on us, and by the time we were settled with our new dad we had already went through three states! The only thing we had was each other.We definiatly lived for the the small thingsin life.
I remember when we all used to sit in my room and laugh for hours and hours...Dad would always come in- shake his head- and walk out, And we would all just laugh again. By the time toni and jamie would go to bed mom and me could only sit and think about how bad our ribs hurt, that is until one of us would laugh again. We remember how mom would show up at school for our "dr. appt" and then we'd go thru all the 2nd hand stores in the next town. I'm sure dad still doesnt know about those kind of days! There were days we would all scream and hollar at each other about stupid stuff before we would go our seperate ways- but somehow the 4 of us would end up cuddling in a twin bed for the night. but that was normal A bad dream a break-up a bad day, we would all sleep together...our healing time.
We also remember All the absolute ridiculous stuff we did. In Alabama, ther was this horrific hurricane. We were all starting to go stir crazy and finally mom came, dressed us up in our coats, and pulled us out of the door. Puddle-jumping she said. We loved it. Thunder and all. One 4th of july we set of a huge purple fire-work! Except she let us help set it up, and BOOM! it exploded into our huge oak tree- which of course led to another night of laughter.
jesse used to drink bleach, so while mom drove him off to the hospital jamie toni and I were guilt tripped into squatting on the floor and praying our little hearts out! Also when we were younger if one of us girls saw any road kill, mom made us get out and pray!!! haha jamie and toni always cried and cried!!
All this funny stuff doesnt compare to our punishments! Especially toni and I! When we got in trouble in church, we always knew what to expect! A 3 mile walk home, in front of moms headlights. and the rain didnt excuse it...we would walk it anyway. Or when we fought, mom would line the living room with pillows, and toss us our boxing gloves, and when we cried cause we didnt wanna hurt each other she'd just laugh. When we screamed and constantly tattled she would duck-tape our hands together! FOR THE WHOLE WEEKEND! toni was a leftie and me a righty, so she figured we were alright. And dont think the public bothered her! she'd drag our emberassed little butts right in that piggly wiggly, and when people looked at us funny, we'd have to explain y we were duct taped! Boy did it work!
But above all that, she loved us. every morning and night we knew that. She always told us we saved her life, and so thats what she was living for. Mom got sick -i believe-in 03. She was diagnosed with Sjorgrens Syndrome. Its a disease that attacks your moisture glands. She ended up on some pretty intense medication, and our wacky punishments and late nights laughing slowed down. But she still let us knew she loved us. Mom died from "walking pneumonia" on April 12 2005. It was exactly one week after toni and i had our prom, and one week before jesse & my birthdays.
It was Hard. Thats all there is to say. For the first month or so instead of laughing, we cried, together, in a tiny bed...our healing time. Even when we slept in our own beds, someone couldn't sleep wether it was nightmares or thoughts, so we'd climb in another persons bed. then those 2 would go to the next and the next till all 4 of us were in the same bed and then we'd sleep.
After she died we got even closer. She made sure she taught us what each other needed before she left. She taught us how to take care of each other. And thats how we made it through our hard times.
Now we have all went our own direction in life. I'm married, Toni is modeling in Arizona, jamie is a new high-schooler and jesse is learning about himself. Its sad that we are all seperated. When we have bad days, theres no bed to sneak off to. When we have great days theres no laughing all night. But then we remember our cell phones... We cuddle up in our beds, on our phones, and we have our healing time.
We love you today,we love you tomorrow,we love you always.
Cremated, Ashes given to family or friend.
Created by: James Myers
Record added: Feb 16, 2009
Find A Grave Memorial# 33902921