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|I LIVE IN PASADENA TX AND I GOT INTERESTED IN "FIND A GRAVE" AFTER MY GRANDDAUGHTER PASSED AWAY THREE YEARS AGO ON VALENTINES DAY. HER NAME IS ROBYN RASPBERRY AND I WISH YOU WOULD SEND HER A FLOWER AND LOOK AT HER GUEST BOOK.I HAVE MY MOTHER IN FIND A GRAVE TOO THANKS TO A SWEET PERSON NAMED DEE. I COULDN'T BELIEVE SHE CHOSE MY MOTHER. THANK YOU,DEE! THIS HAS GIVEN ME SO MUCH PLEASURE AND KIND OF HELPS TO MAKE THE SADNESS GO AWAY A LITTLE.|
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Angel day thank you, Matthew Clark
Grief is itself a medicine. - William Cowper
If I would have read this 12 years ago, I would have spit on the ground and screamed, are you crazy? In 12 years I have had a lot of medicine.
A medicine is a remedy, a remedy is therapy, that relieves pain, cures disease, or corrects a disorder.
So if you believe William, I have been suffering with a disorder and my medicine or remedy is grief. Seriously, grief spans out in front of our lives like a highway in the desert. It goes off into the sunset only to return with the dawn.
Just as you are about to except grief, the medicine of grief returns to be another almost road block in life. I have no idea where I am going with this. I know there is something to communicate here but I just can't find the words.
Maybe it's the Mary Poppins version of "just a spoon full of sugar helps the medicine go down." You have been my spoon full of sugar on my fathers Angel Day.
You made it better and bearable and once again I was not alone on these tragic memorable days but you were all here with me. Thank you for the sugar and the willingness to be a part of today.
Added by Diane ღ on Nov 16, 2011 10:30 PM
I woke up this morning with the clear idea that I was not going to get weird and troubled about my Dad's death. That it has been 11 years, and that I have survived his death and almost my Mothers death. Although I often have feelings of despair when I start my day, I was going to get all my errands done and get about life.
Not an uneventful life today ether. Last night for the second time I was walking with my dog and was attacked by a pit bull.
The aftermath was going to be a lot of errands. My dog had to go to the vet, and the doggie cleaners. I had to see my Dr. for an antibiotic and the day was going to be filled with running around.
Today was cloudy and dark with a pale gray sky, and it has been snowing on and off. The driving was good, the roads were clear. When I was going to pick up the dog from the cleaners, I was alone in the car, I realized how quiet it was. That type of quiet where you think you can hear molecules hitting you ear drums.
I looked to my right and coming down a large snow pilled hill was a dear. The road was a four lane residential road and I was alone on the road, and alone in the car.
As the deer approached, I realized it was huge. Quickly, I was counting the points....two, four, six, maybe more? Ok, that would mean it was at least a 12 point buck.
He was soft brown and moved with a royal dignity. His Beauty and soulfulness was breathtaking. His size showed his power. The hill, the road, and the sky he claimed as his own. He walked deliberately up to the side of the road.
I was stopped and frozen looking at him. As he stood on the road side, we locked eyes. His deep dark beautiful eyes. All knowing, all understanding. Once again in my life, time was standing still.
As I sat there I wondered how did you get here? Why are you here? Why are you looking at me? I felt like I was in the presents of something bigger than we humans.
As he started into the street and was passing my car, he stopped for a split second and I swear when he stopped he looked at me an did a quick nod of his head, and then moved across the street, up into the snow, and up the hill to safety.
I was overcome with that thing, that happens to me where I feel God is communicating to me,
"It's Ok, everything is going to be alright" I felt that the spirit of God has been gently moving me along in life.
That in his word
Let every thing that hath breath praise the Lord....
That majestic spiritual animal was a gift and a message to not just me but something I wanted to share with you. "It's Ok, everything is going to be alright," that God is with us even on days when we decide to run in other directions, like I did today.
So today I have encountered the love and glory of GOD that our Father has so graciously placed within the spirit of his animal kingdom and myself.
Once again out of the despair I am filled with hope that everything is "OK." That we are following a plan made just for us.
Thank you for your friendship, for remembering my father today. For being part of my cyber world.
PS....To the dear hunters...ya , I know !!
Added by Diane ღ on Nov 16, 2010 8:21 PM
|Diane ღ||Dear Marlene,|
As I sit here trying to thank everyone for their flowers of remembrance for my Mother, the words just get suck in my throat.
It was a year of first's for me. I could write on and on about the grief and pain but you all know this pain and it would not make anybody feel happy or different today about their own pain. So I looked back in my life when things were normal and wondrous and I want to share that day with you. Another day of firsts for me. My son's first birthday. I wrote this to him and it is on a plaque that hung in his room until he left home.
I made the plaque that says now I lay me down to sleep, on the back I wrote the letter to him....As I reread it today it has a lot of how this past year has been without my Mother. Old feelings woken up in grief. I know I have changed. I hope as she lays in rest that she knows that all I am, is because of her. Maybe that would not make her so proud, because I have my faults, and I stumble but my love comes from her.
So I am leaving you this letter, as a token of thanks for friendship, and a little bit of insight to who I am. Because that is who my Mother made me.
We've made great strides you and I this year. You starting out as a helpless infant basically stranded in an out of reach world. And now it seems you reach for everything and you usually get it before I can stop you.
Each step of the way I've told myself to memorize the moment and everytime it seems to slip away. For being such a little boy you've taught me a lot. About the joy of discovering pieces of the world I'd begun to take for granted and how to throw caution to the wind every once in awhile.
To be a little less selfish and more loving. You taught me about priorities but sometimes I think I love you to much tending to give you more roots than wings. I hold you as much as I can because I know that tomorrow could be the day when you decide that there just isn't enough time to sit on mothers lap, and if I don't hold you now the chance may be gone forever.
The picture in my mind of this last year fill me with joy and sadness because I know that those moments are gone forever, but I do remember the excitement, joy and incomparable exhilaration of your first smile, your first birthday.
A year of firsts for both of us. A year you won't remember and a year I won't forget.
Added by Diane ღ on Aug 13, 2010 12:44 PM
|Karla Tschannen||THANK YOU|
Dearest Marlene~ I wanted to let you know how much I appreciated the beautiful token and kind words for my dear Father-In-Law you left for him today. Thank you once again, Hugs~ Karla
Thank you so much for showing kindness to my granny Iva and visiting her memorial.
Your gesture touched me and I know it would have tickled my granny to have someone she didn't know, do something so nice for her.
Added by Jami on Jul 30, 2008 4:30 PM
Thank you for visiting William's memorial page today and leaving a token.
|In Memory of my Granny Ruth||Hello|
Thank you for leaving a token for my Granny. I love our flower circle!
Ruth from California
~in memory of my granny ruth~
Thank you for leaving a prayer on my grandma's page, God Bless You Always, Angelica :)
Added by Angelica on Mar 16, 2008 9:41 PM
|Angie's Big Sis||Thank you|
Thank you very much for your note and prayer you left on my sister's site (Angela Morosco Barnes), and the beautiful pictures. We have found comfort in the thoughts and prayers of other faithful people.
Thank you so much for visiting Rich's page and leaving such kind words. Your thoughtfulness is greatly appreciated! thank you!
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