I was pregnant when I lost you sweet baby. You may have not been in my life for very long but it didn't effect the love I felt for you or the impact you had on my life.
I still feel that love today. Though it has grown over the years. I was so happy to be pregnant with you and that you had chosen me to be your mommy. I may have been young and it may have only been a short time after having your older brother Devin, but I wanted you badly and loved you so much.
My only regret is that we never got to meet. That I never got to hold you. See you smile or watch you grow everyday. I never got to give you a big hug and tell you how much I loved you or what you mean to me. I never got to give you a kiss or watch you grow into a wonderful human being.
I loved feeling you flutter in my belly. I loved thinking about you and planning for you, and sharing every moment we had together. It was such a hard road trying to figure out what was going to happen with us. Then God showed me and my life without you and missing you began.
We all love you so very much. Even if you aren't here to be seen or be held. You are still a part of our family.
We know that you are looking over us and we hope that you are sharing laughs and smiles with us from Heaven. We know that you are a very beautiful and very special angel.
I know that you are with God and Jesus and all the other angels. I know that you leaving me was for a very good reason and that it was all part of God's plan. But it doesn't mean that I don't miss you and wish that you were still here. I know that you have so many people, both here and there, that love you so very much. Most importantly, I know you have Auntie Shayna and so much family up there watching over you. I am so thankful for that.
Most importantly, I am just so very thankful for the few weeks that I had you in my belly. For the bond that we shared. For knowing that while you were here on Earth I was the body that carried you, gave you life, and nourished you. I am so thankful that your soul was part of mine. I am a better person for it and so very proud to be your mom. I am sorry that it just wasn't meant for us to be together here on earth and look forward to seeing you in Heaven when I come and join you.
I love you so much Angel baby. I think of you all the time. I love and miss you everyday xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I Only Wanted You. They say memories are golden... well maybe that is true. I never wanted memories, I only wanted you. A million times I needed you, a million times I cried. If love alone could have saved you, you never would have died. In life I loved you dearly... In death I love you still. In my heart you hold a place... no one could ever fill. If tears could build a stairway and heartache made a lane, I'd walk the path to heaven and bring you back again. Our family chain is broken,and nothing seems the same. But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.
These are a few poems that I have found and people have sent to me
We are connected, My child and I,
by an invisible cord, not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord that connects
us 'til birth
This cord can't be seen by any on Earth.
This cord does its work right from the start.
It binds us together, attatched to my heart.
I know that it's there, though no one can see,
The invisible cord from my child to me.
The strength of this cord is hard to describe.
It can't be destroyed, it can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord man could create,
It withstands the test, can hold any weight.
And though you are gone,
Though you are not here with me,
The cord is still there, but no one can see.
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised...I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline, as never before.
I am thankful that God connects us this way,
A mother and child--Death can't take it away!
My Precious Little Baby,
Your face I've never seen.
Your skin I've never touched before,
Nor held you close to me.
You lived inside my body,
But only for a while;
Till Jesus softly whispered,
"Come home my little child."
You must have been a special child;
If God needed you up there.
Because heaven is a better home,
It's beauty can't compare.
So, till I get to heaven,
And see your shining face;
Jesus will take care of you,
And love you in my place.
Yes, Jesus loves His little lambs,
They sit around His throne;
So sit on Jesus' lap dear child--
Till Mommy gets called home.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMY
By: Heather Peterson....Mommy to Angel Gage
A kiss to you on Mother's day,
a hug from me to you.
I know that you are sad sometimes,
I know that you are blue.
Please wipe away that tear,
and put on a happy face.
For I'm with God in Heaven now,
and oh, Mommy, what a wonderful place!
God gave me wings so I could fly,
they are white with a hint of blue.
I'm a big boy Mommy, with these wings of mine
they carry me down to visit you.
God is teaching me how to catch your prayers,
prayers that come as wishes.
Your wish is the same everyday,
a wish that I could have stayed.
I have a prayer for you now Mommy,
I pray that you will hear.
God needed me here with him,
I have no pain or fear.
For I am an Angel now you see,
I watch over you each night and day.
A little piece of Heaven on earth,
guiding you on your way.
I come to tuck you in each night,
as you wanted to do with me.
I hear your prayers and kiss your cheek,
and then I watch you dream.
Before I leave you and go back home,
I look at you and sigh.
And as I fly back to Heaven
I sing you a lull-a-bye.
A kiss to you on Mother's Day,
a hug from me to you.
I love you Mommy, please don't cry,
you'll get to hold me soon.
For Gage Alexander Peterson
Who earned his wings on July 13, 1997
at 13 1/2 weeks gestation
"The hardest word mommy knows is...Goodbye."
TOGETHER AS ONE
By: Heather Peterson.....Mommy to Angel Gage.
An Angel woke up early one morning
for he knew he had a plan
God had told him just the day before
that he was off to a different land.
He was proud that he was chosen
he knew it was a wonderful task
God had many to choose from
but it was he that God did ask.
God told him he would be a special gift
to a woman and a man
and their love would hold him close
as God held them in his hand.
With a golden smile, he began his journey
across the imagination stream
He didn't have far to go
when he reached the rainbow of dreams.
Soon he was carried by the stardust
for he no longer needed wings
And as he grew closer, he heard the woman sing
'Sleep tight my Angel,
gentle kisses from me to you
Sleep sound my Angel,
I'll get to see you soon.
Soon he was in a cozy place
her heart beating music of love
inside his Mother's womb
and Angel from up above.
For only a few weeks was this his home
when God told him it was time to leave
Silently he flew back to Heaven
watching his parents grieve.
The little Angel was confused in Heaven
and he approached God to ask
why he had to leave so soon
and why he was chosen for this task.
He listened closely as God replied:
"In a few short weeks
you shared your love
inside her womb she carried
an Angel from up above.
Your task does not end here"
God told his little one.
"For now you will watch over her
until her time is done."
An Angel woke up early one morning
for he knew he had a plan
On golden wings he flew to her
and gently took her hand
She could not see him through her tears
but felt his presence nearby.
He heart lept with joy
as she heard her own lull-a-bye.
'Sleep tight my Mother
gentle kisses from me to you,
Sleep sound my Mother
Your angel is with you.
From that night on he went to her
in daylight and in dreams
Soon her tears came less.
And her eyes again began to gleam.
He knew he would never leave her side
he'd stay with her till the end.
And on that day she would hold him close
and they'd be one again.
Dedicated in Memory to
Gage Alexander Peterson
Who earned his wings in paradise on
July 13, 1997
"The Hardest Word Mommy Knows is...Goodbye."
"Death of a Child"
Sorry I didn't get to stay.
To laugh and run and play.
To be there by your side.
I'm sorry that I had to die.
God sent me down to be with you,
to make your loving heart anew.
To help you look up and see
Both God and little me.
Mommy, I wish I could stay.
Just like I heard you pray.
But, all the angels did cry
when they told little me goodbye.
God didn't take me cause' He's mad.
He didn't send me to make you sad.
But to give us both a chance to be
a love so precious...don't you see?
Up here no trouble do I see
and the pretty angels sing to me.
The streets of gold is where I play
you'll come here too, mommy, someday.
Until the day you join me here,
I'll love you mommy, dear.
Each breeze you feel and see,
brings love and a kiss from me.
O precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me.
So perfect, pure, and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and of your life
And all that it would be.
We waited and longed for you to come.
And join our family.
We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to you giggle.
I'll always be your mother,
He'll always be your dad.
You will always be our child,
The child that we had.
But now you're gone...but yet you're here
We'll sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy,
There's love in every tear.
Just know our love goes deep and strong
We'll forget you never--
The child we had, but never had
And yet will have forever!
Created by: Mysticalminded
Record added: Sep 29, 2007
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Added: Mar. 28, 2015
You didn't die in vain. you were spared. mommy loves you so much sweetheart. Help guide me. I'm sure you already do ;)|
Added: Jul. 30, 2014
I love you. Pray for us xoxoxo|
Added: Jul. 20, 2014
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