16 years. She has been dead as many years as she was alive. How has an entire lifetime passed by like time wants to say she was never here. And I'm angry. Ive been robbed. She is forever a part of me. Eternity is on my side. I'm devastated and broken. Fighting the tears that have been thundering under the surface never to come out. This year is probably the hardest since the first year. My heart constantly aches but I don't want it to stop. The ache is all I have left of the significance from my sister bond. Memories of our laughter and the things we take for granted that are what makes us a family. The cruelty of her loss is matched only by the blessing of having her for as long as we did. I am grateful she knows nothing of this suffering and only has the blessing of being loved as she waits in peaceful bliss for me beside the Savior that makes our reunion possible. So I watch another sunrise without her as the world moves on and only I stand still fighting time as if to say you are not the boss of me. Until I finally surrender to the One who keeps me functioning and follow Jesus' lead. "Beloved, arise and walk" He whispers to me. I obey with hopeful anticipation trusting my heartache in His protective hands
I JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student. Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Dreyer and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer. She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparent, Elmer Herbertson. Jessica was preceded in death by her grandmother Doris Allen and now they are togeather.
Mount Pisgah Cemetery,
Cripple Creek,
Teller County,
Colorado
DREYER, Jessica Kathleen
b 17 JUN 1984
d 1 DEC 2000
block F
row 006
plot 035
El Paso County, Colorado Obituaries:
JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER
Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student.
Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Allan and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer.
She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparents, Anna and Elmer Herbertson.
Services will be at 10 a.m. Saturday at New Life Church, 11025 Highway 83. Inurnment will be private. Mountain View Mortuary, 2350 Montebello Square Drive, 590-8922, is handling arrangements.
Memorial contributions may be made to Cerebral Palsy Association of Colorado Springs, 12 N. Meade Ave., Colorado Springs 80909.
Jennifer Dreyer 12-1-2011 wrote:
11 years ago today we went shopping for a Christmas tree for the last time as your laughter landed in my ears for the last time never to be forgotten. My life was forever changed in one moment to know an ache in my heart so deep it will never leave me this side of heaven. I take a final this morning reminding me to breathe without you and keep moving forward but my heart still aches. I love baby ...sis and miss you so much. We should be talking about boys and rodeo but instead I have to run this race alone without you while u wait for me in heaven. Im the one in pain but I'm coming home soon. I just have some work to do first but keep the feast out for me. I love you with everything. Please don't leave
1DEC2018 by Jennifer
18 years ago today, Jessica was taken from us. Today is when I let my pain consume me in remembering how much I love her and how big the hole is in my heart she left behind. I lived a lifetime with her in it and now I have lived a lifetime without her which seems even more cruel. I found out in Sept that the guy who killed her died in 2015 with no wife or kids. I felt an odd sense of satisfaction that while he got 15 more years on this earth than she did, he didn’t get to have the things he took from her or from us. I never wished him harm but I wish he would have cared enough to want forgiveness. Now it doesn’t matter. That night, mom and I went shopping for Christmas trees with her. The last thing we did with her. Then that night she missed curfew. Dad went out on the streets looking for her. He came across the accident and identified her on the side of the road where she had been thrown. My mom and I were in the car headed to hospitals to check for Jane Does when dad called. Mom asked, “is she dead? Tell me is she dead” and then just started screaming and stopped the car. The scream of an entire world split open and the darkness pouring out and consuming it completely. I will always be haunted by that scream. I didn’t believe him. He couldn’t know. It was a mistake. She’s not dead. God can raise her back to life. She’s just knocked out. Take me instead. She was a better person than me. I deserve to die. Take me instead. No deal. We went to my grandparents house where I saw my dad cry for the first time in my life. I didn’t know that’s what it was because it was so foreign. My world was spinning into darkness. Darkness I wanted to fall deeper and deeper into. Darkness I wanted to completely consume me into oblivion. Time stopped and stood still. We couldn’t get a hold of Jill in Texas. She had no idea what just happened. I knelt down in a corner and begged and pleaded with God as I sobbed. He didn’t give me what I asked for. But I did feel Him kneeling next to me sobbing with me. My heartache was His heartache too. We both knew I would see her again in heaven but that didn’t take away from the pain of losing her here. The worst day of my life so far. Many of you were there with us and I’m forever in your debt for the love and support you give. I usually take this time to help the world know what it lost with her gone. Today I wanted to share what I lost in myself with her gone. I miss her as much today as that first day.
I JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student. Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Dreyer and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer. She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparent, Elmer Herbertson. Jessica was preceded in death by her grandmother Doris Allen and now they are togeather.
Mount Pisgah Cemetery,
Cripple Creek,
Teller County,
Colorado
DREYER, Jessica Kathleen
b 17 JUN 1984
d 1 DEC 2000
block F
row 006
plot 035
El Paso County, Colorado Obituaries:
JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER
Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student.
Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Allan and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer.
She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparents, Anna and Elmer Herbertson.
Services will be at 10 a.m. Saturday at New Life Church, 11025 Highway 83. Inurnment will be private. Mountain View Mortuary, 2350 Montebello Square Drive, 590-8922, is handling arrangements.
Memorial contributions may be made to Cerebral Palsy Association of Colorado Springs, 12 N. Meade Ave., Colorado Springs 80909.
Jennifer Dreyer 12-1-2011 wrote:
11 years ago today we went shopping for a Christmas tree for the last time as your laughter landed in my ears for the last time never to be forgotten. My life was forever changed in one moment to know an ache in my heart so deep it will never leave me this side of heaven. I take a final this morning reminding me to breathe without you and keep moving forward but my heart still aches. I love baby ...sis and miss you so much. We should be talking about boys and rodeo but instead I have to run this race alone without you while u wait for me in heaven. Im the one in pain but I'm coming home soon. I just have some work to do first but keep the feast out for me. I love you with everything. Please don't leave
1DEC2018 by Jennifer
18 years ago today, Jessica was taken from us. Today is when I let my pain consume me in remembering how much I love her and how big the hole is in my heart she left behind. I lived a lifetime with her in it and now I have lived a lifetime without her which seems even more cruel. I found out in Sept that the guy who killed her died in 2015 with no wife or kids. I felt an odd sense of satisfaction that while he got 15 more years on this earth than she did, he didn’t get to have the things he took from her or from us. I never wished him harm but I wish he would have cared enough to want forgiveness. Now it doesn’t matter. That night, mom and I went shopping for Christmas trees with her. The last thing we did with her. Then that night she missed curfew. Dad went out on the streets looking for her. He came across the accident and identified her on the side of the road where she had been thrown. My mom and I were in the car headed to hospitals to check for Jane Does when dad called. Mom asked, “is she dead? Tell me is she dead” and then just started screaming and stopped the car. The scream of an entire world split open and the darkness pouring out and consuming it completely. I will always be haunted by that scream. I didn’t believe him. He couldn’t know. It was a mistake. She’s not dead. God can raise her back to life. She’s just knocked out. Take me instead. She was a better person than me. I deserve to die. Take me instead. No deal. We went to my grandparents house where I saw my dad cry for the first time in my life. I didn’t know that’s what it was because it was so foreign. My world was spinning into darkness. Darkness I wanted to fall deeper and deeper into. Darkness I wanted to completely consume me into oblivion. Time stopped and stood still. We couldn’t get a hold of Jill in Texas. She had no idea what just happened. I knelt down in a corner and begged and pleaded with God as I sobbed. He didn’t give me what I asked for. But I did feel Him kneeling next to me sobbing with me. My heartache was His heartache too. We both knew I would see her again in heaven but that didn’t take away from the pain of losing her here. The worst day of my life so far. Many of you were there with us and I’m forever in your debt for the love and support you give. I usually take this time to help the world know what it lost with her gone. Today I wanted to share what I lost in myself with her gone. I miss her as much today as that first day.
16 years. She has been dead as many years as she was alive. How has an entire lifetime passed by like time wants to say she was never here. And I'm angry. Ive been robbed. She is forever a part of me. Eternity is on my side. I'm devastated and broken. Fighting the tears that have been thundering under the surface never to come out. This year is probably the hardest since the first year. My heart constantly aches but I don't want it to stop. The ache is all I have left of the significance from my sister bond. Memories of our laughter and the things we take for granted that are what makes us a family. The cruelty of her loss is matched only by the blessing of having her for as long as we did. I am grateful she knows nothing of this suffering and only has the blessing of being loved as she waits in peaceful bliss for me beside the Savior that makes our reunion possible. So I watch another sunrise without her as the world moves on and only I stand still fighting time as if to say you are not the boss of me. Until I finally surrender to the One who keeps me functioning and follow Jesus' lead. "Beloved, arise and walk" He whispers to me. I obey with hopeful anticipation trusting my heartache in His protective hands
I JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student. Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Dreyer and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer. She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparent, Elmer Herbertson. Jessica was preceded in death by her grandmother Doris Allen and now they are togeather.
Mount Pisgah Cemetery,
Cripple Creek,
Teller County,
Colorado
DREYER, Jessica Kathleen
b 17 JUN 1984
d 1 DEC 2000
block F
row 006
plot 035
El Paso County, Colorado Obituaries:
JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER
Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student.
Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Allan and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer.
She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparents, Anna and Elmer Herbertson.
Services will be at 10 a.m. Saturday at New Life Church, 11025 Highway 83. Inurnment will be private. Mountain View Mortuary, 2350 Montebello Square Drive, 590-8922, is handling arrangements.
Memorial contributions may be made to Cerebral Palsy Association of Colorado Springs, 12 N. Meade Ave., Colorado Springs 80909.
Jennifer Dreyer 12-1-2011 wrote:
11 years ago today we went shopping for a Christmas tree for the last time as your laughter landed in my ears for the last time never to be forgotten. My life was forever changed in one moment to know an ache in my heart so deep it will never leave me this side of heaven. I take a final this morning reminding me to breathe without you and keep moving forward but my heart still aches. I love baby ...sis and miss you so much. We should be talking about boys and rodeo but instead I have to run this race alone without you while u wait for me in heaven. Im the one in pain but I'm coming home soon. I just have some work to do first but keep the feast out for me. I love you with everything. Please don't leave
1DEC2018 by Jennifer
18 years ago today, Jessica was taken from us. Today is when I let my pain consume me in remembering how much I love her and how big the hole is in my heart she left behind. I lived a lifetime with her in it and now I have lived a lifetime without her which seems even more cruel. I found out in Sept that the guy who killed her died in 2015 with no wife or kids. I felt an odd sense of satisfaction that while he got 15 more years on this earth than she did, he didn’t get to have the things he took from her or from us. I never wished him harm but I wish he would have cared enough to want forgiveness. Now it doesn’t matter. That night, mom and I went shopping for Christmas trees with her. The last thing we did with her. Then that night she missed curfew. Dad went out on the streets looking for her. He came across the accident and identified her on the side of the road where she had been thrown. My mom and I were in the car headed to hospitals to check for Jane Does when dad called. Mom asked, “is she dead? Tell me is she dead” and then just started screaming and stopped the car. The scream of an entire world split open and the darkness pouring out and consuming it completely. I will always be haunted by that scream. I didn’t believe him. He couldn’t know. It was a mistake. She’s not dead. God can raise her back to life. She’s just knocked out. Take me instead. She was a better person than me. I deserve to die. Take me instead. No deal. We went to my grandparents house where I saw my dad cry for the first time in my life. I didn’t know that’s what it was because it was so foreign. My world was spinning into darkness. Darkness I wanted to fall deeper and deeper into. Darkness I wanted to completely consume me into oblivion. Time stopped and stood still. We couldn’t get a hold of Jill in Texas. She had no idea what just happened. I knelt down in a corner and begged and pleaded with God as I sobbed. He didn’t give me what I asked for. But I did feel Him kneeling next to me sobbing with me. My heartache was His heartache too. We both knew I would see her again in heaven but that didn’t take away from the pain of losing her here. The worst day of my life so far. Many of you were there with us and I’m forever in your debt for the love and support you give. I usually take this time to help the world know what it lost with her gone. Today I wanted to share what I lost in myself with her gone. I miss her as much today as that first day.
I JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student. Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Dreyer and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer. She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparent, Elmer Herbertson. Jessica was preceded in death by her grandmother Doris Allen and now they are togeather.
Mount Pisgah Cemetery,
Cripple Creek,
Teller County,
Colorado
DREYER, Jessica Kathleen
b 17 JUN 1984
d 1 DEC 2000
block F
row 006
plot 035
El Paso County, Colorado Obituaries:
JESSICA KATHLEEN DREYER
Jessica, 16, died Dec. 1, 2000, in Colorado Springs as a result of a car accident. She was a student.
Jessica was born June 17, 1984, in Huntington Beach, Calif., to Jeffery Allan and Joni Lynn (Herbertson) Dreyer.
She is survived by her parents; two sisters, Jennifer and Jillian; and her grandparents, Anna and Elmer Herbertson.
Services will be at 10 a.m. Saturday at New Life Church, 11025 Highway 83. Inurnment will be private. Mountain View Mortuary, 2350 Montebello Square Drive, 590-8922, is handling arrangements.
Memorial contributions may be made to Cerebral Palsy Association of Colorado Springs, 12 N. Meade Ave., Colorado Springs 80909.
Jennifer Dreyer 12-1-2011 wrote:
11 years ago today we went shopping for a Christmas tree for the last time as your laughter landed in my ears for the last time never to be forgotten. My life was forever changed in one moment to know an ache in my heart so deep it will never leave me this side of heaven. I take a final this morning reminding me to breathe without you and keep moving forward but my heart still aches. I love baby ...sis and miss you so much. We should be talking about boys and rodeo but instead I have to run this race alone without you while u wait for me in heaven. Im the one in pain but I'm coming home soon. I just have some work to do first but keep the feast out for me. I love you with everything. Please don't leave
1DEC2018 by Jennifer
18 years ago today, Jessica was taken from us. Today is when I let my pain consume me in remembering how much I love her and how big the hole is in my heart she left behind. I lived a lifetime with her in it and now I have lived a lifetime without her which seems even more cruel. I found out in Sept that the guy who killed her died in 2015 with no wife or kids. I felt an odd sense of satisfaction that while he got 15 more years on this earth than she did, he didn’t get to have the things he took from her or from us. I never wished him harm but I wish he would have cared enough to want forgiveness. Now it doesn’t matter. That night, mom and I went shopping for Christmas trees with her. The last thing we did with her. Then that night she missed curfew. Dad went out on the streets looking for her. He came across the accident and identified her on the side of the road where she had been thrown. My mom and I were in the car headed to hospitals to check for Jane Does when dad called. Mom asked, “is she dead? Tell me is she dead” and then just started screaming and stopped the car. The scream of an entire world split open and the darkness pouring out and consuming it completely. I will always be haunted by that scream. I didn’t believe him. He couldn’t know. It was a mistake. She’s not dead. God can raise her back to life. She’s just knocked out. Take me instead. She was a better person than me. I deserve to die. Take me instead. No deal. We went to my grandparents house where I saw my dad cry for the first time in my life. I didn’t know that’s what it was because it was so foreign. My world was spinning into darkness. Darkness I wanted to fall deeper and deeper into. Darkness I wanted to completely consume me into oblivion. Time stopped and stood still. We couldn’t get a hold of Jill in Texas. She had no idea what just happened. I knelt down in a corner and begged and pleaded with God as I sobbed. He didn’t give me what I asked for. But I did feel Him kneeling next to me sobbing with me. My heartache was His heartache too. We both knew I would see her again in heaven but that didn’t take away from the pain of losing her here. The worst day of my life so far. Many of you were there with us and I’m forever in your debt for the love and support you give. I usually take this time to help the world know what it lost with her gone. Today I wanted to share what I lost in myself with her gone. I miss her as much today as that first day.
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